NuevaVida
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I admit I left work early today and just went shopping. The new glasses I ordered came in so I picked them up, then went to Penny's to get a few items, and then spent a couple of hours in Cost Plus - I love that store. I admit as I was leaving work I was talking to a friend and just felt tearful over recent events. She reminded me that I can not own my sister's heartache, and that I've been doing that. She advised me to go take some "me" time and focus on what makes me feel good, and to be present in that moment - not anywhere else in my mind. She reminded me that every time my mind goes back to the the "blood bath" morning (it goes there a lot), or to the three days with my sister at the hospital, or to watching him die, to refocus on something that makes me happy...to acknowledge the events in the last few weeks and then to shift away from them, rather than dwell. I admit I took that advice, and found myself really relaxed while shopping. I love all the Indian/Eastern stuff at Cost Plus and it makes me feel good just to look at it, touch it, and be around it. I admit it was good to tune out the world for a couple of hours. I admit I got a bunch of stocking stuffers for the Mister and the girl child. I admit when I got home, the new bedding I had ordered had arrived and OMG it's BEAUTIFUL! I'm so happy with it. Got the comforter and sheets through Groupons, and a Duvet/Pillow set through Overstock. My Christmas present to myself. I admit the Mister sent me an email outlining various travel/family visit options for Christmas, since I was thrown by his daughter's work schedule changing the entire plan. I admit I had become rather uptight last weekend about a 17 year old potentially shifting my entire Christmas schedule with my family. I admit I am grateful for the effort he has put into making sure I still get Christmas with my family, he still gets to see his daughter through Christmas, he and I will still have Christmas together, and his daughter will still go to work. The man is a genius. We spoke about all the options tonight and chose the one that makes the most sense. I admit I'm kinda liking my new glasses, too. I admit, thank you everyone for your patience while I keep writing about it. Hopefully I'll move forward soon, and write about happier things.
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