tiggerspoohbear
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I admit my dad threw me for the worst loop today, and spewed hatred at me. Something he's never ever done. I admit a lot of what I joked about, that he used to know was a joke and teasing, he took seriously. It's not pretty in my home today. I'm an emotional wreck. He's told me he doesn't even want to see me right now, basically, he hates me and the sight of me makes him sick. I admit I'm so heartbroken over this, I'm paralyzed. I can't even talk to him, he doesn't even want to hear my voice. I admit this is a first, he's accused me of stuff I haven't done, he's 77, his g/f has noticed a mental deterioration, and so have I. But not to go as far as this. I admit I told him my heart was literally breaking at what he said to me, and he told me I was at fault. Which broke my heart even more. I admit it's been 2 1/2 hrs since that phone call, I can't stop crying, I'm an emotionally wrung out mess and I feel worthless and less than a worm right now. I admit I have to stop, I'm driving myself crazy. I'd go on a bender, but thank my lucky starts, I don't drink anymore, or this would be a corker. Edited for an errant "t", don't even know how I managed to see it.
< Message edited by tiggerspoohbear -- 12/28/2012 9:12:41 AM >
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