NuevaVida
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I admit hugs to Soul, I've struggled with depression in the past and I understand how difficult it can be. I admit hugs to Ash, I hate your situation and I'm always glad to see when you post here. I admit after seeing my doctor today I was feeling much better about things - right eye almost completely healed, left eye beginning to heal - and I read for awhile, got up, felt a twinge in my right eye, looked in the mirror and it had spontaneously hemorrhaged again. WTF?? I admit I totally freaked out and started wondering if I'm possessed by demons, because I certainly *look* like one. I emailed my doc to tell him what happened and that I'm freaking out, and then I called the Mister (SIGH - I hate being so far away) and cried in his ear until he calmed me down and told me to call the advice nurse. I admit I called the advice nurse and she paged the doctor on call and he called me back and guess what - it's my doctor, the one I saw today and who I've seen for 12+ years. I told him I was freaking out and that his earlier description of the woman clinging from the wall in the scary movie he saw (crap, can't remember the name now) was in my head, and I asked him if I was going to be possessed by demons in the night. He laughed and promised I wouldn't be. He said subconjunctival hemorrhages are not uncommon and totally benign, but he can't say why it's happened to me at this degree, three times in two weeks, but he'll get me to an ophthalmologist tomorrow to see if they can shed any light that he can't. And then he told me to get some sleep and to stop thinking about the woman clinging from the wall in the movie, and I laughed and called him a bastard (is it OK to call your doc a bastard?!). I admit I'm less freaked out now but I don't like this at ALL and I told the Mister I don't want him to see me looking like demon-child, but he chuckled a bit and said I'm not a demon and I don't look like one and he loves me and I don't get to decide not to see him. I admit I'm off to bed now, calmer, but I really wish my eyes would go back to normal now.
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