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Delphinus -> RE: improving submission (12/30/2009 8:59:22 PM)
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Though I might have been put off by the question, in actuality, I think I "improve my submission" constantly. I do believe that I can strengthen my submissive nature and improve how I act in submission independent of being told to by my Master. I force myself, without his leverage, to make myself as emotionally exposed to him as possible. That could come in different forms:
I could force myself to overcome a flash of humility when I'm put in a position. I'm doing what he's told me to do - the act is being done - but I am improving my submission by accepting it internally as well.
I could force myself to tell him what I think is embarassing, or too deep, or too dark. He would never know I wasn't doing my best to keep myself open to him - it's only me that can decide to dig down deeper than I ever have before to give myself to him.
I could force myself to truly drop everything when, say, he calls me. I could continue folding the laundry or sorting the mail, and he would never know. But I dig a little deeper and stop what I can to give him my full attention, without ever an order to do so.
These are probably fine examples for non-BDSM relationships, as well, I suppose...for the right person. I know far too many women who fight hard to remain so independent, virtuous, and guarded. The submission, for me, is letting that guard completely down and giving up a little bit of that pernicious pride. That is something that I feel he cannot order of you, expect to say it just as he did.
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