fullofgrace
Posts: 395
Joined: 3/24/2006 From: fl, usa Status: offline
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i call myself a submissive, but by many of these definitions, i am more of a slave. i consider my Dominant my owner, and my joyful service to Him is most important to me. i have "preferences" and "limits," so to speak, but i trust Him to the point that i would do something well beyond what He knows i am comfortable with if He wished it of me. we have a very simple written "contract" that doesn't cover every aspect of our relationship but does cover a few; we mostly rely on verbal communication. i do think of myself, and a lot of my self-care is at His behest; He is very concerned with me being personally fulfilled, having a good experience at school and socially, and taking care of my health and not overworking myself. i know if i ever truly felt that He did not value me or did not have my best interests at heart, i would probably get out of the relationship, but i think i would be more likely to get out of the relationship if i felt that He were unhappy with me and would be happier with someone else. yes, He does give me pleasure, and yes, i do enjoy our arrangement and the sexual and emotional pleasure i receive from Him, but my primary concern is serving Him, not my own gratification. i suppose i use the term "submissive" because it is what we use when we are speaking to each other, not because i think it necessarily describes me anymore than "slave" does. i'm not quite sure where i fit in by others' standards, really.
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