LadyConstanze -> RE: Confused and afraid of dying (8/28/2010 3:49:28 AM)
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ORIGINAL: defiantbadgirl I was having problems with constant vaginal bleeding so I went to a gynecologist. An ultrasound revealed a small cyst on one ovary and abnormally thick uterine lining. The gynecologist prescribed 14 days of medication to slow my bleeding and scheduled me to come back in 2 weeks for testing. The medication completely stopped my bleeding. She said that was a good sign and was very optomistic. She said the chance of me having cancer at 37 was slim but did a pap smear and a uterine biopsy just to make sure. This morning, she called me with good news and bad news. The good news is that my uterine biposy is normal. The bad news is abnormal cells on my cervix. From what I've read, it would be alot better if it was the other way around. When I looked up the symptoms of uterine cancer, abnormal bleeding is listed as a common warning sign. With cervical cancer, there are no warning signs in the early stages and abnormal bleeding is listed as a symptom of advanced cervical cancer. I've been off the pills for several days and have had some cramping, but haven't started bleeding again yet. I'm really confused because it makes no sense that the pills stopped the bleeding if my uterus or hormones aren't the problem. How is that possible? I'm scheduled for a cone biopsy and possible hysterectomy on September 21. She said if the cells are only pre-cancer (according to what I read it's probably advanced cancer), she will do the hysterectomy. If it's cancer she can't do the hysterectomy and will refer me to a cancer doctor who will do a radical hysterectomy and see how far the cancer has spread. I'm devistated that after finally meeting the right guy 2 1/2 years ago, we're going to have such a short time together before my death. I'm also trying to understand why my body is acting like this is a uterine or hormone problem when my cervix shows otherwise. I agree with what has been said, you have to calm down, otherwise how can your body heal if you're putting more stress on you? More opinions are always good, also that you should take somebody with you to remember and help you keep a clear head. Cancer doesn't mean you are dying, in my 20's they found a tumor, I lost one ovary and both tubes, I'm still alive, despite when they finally found it (GP was treating me for a kidney infection for months, missed a tumor of 14" diameter completely in the scan) the prognosis wasn't good, I saw my OB Gyn at 10 am and he told me to go home, pack my stuff and he'd see me in the hospital the same afternoon. Cervical cancer can be treated, but if you are driving yourself nuts, treatment is much much harder, you need to focus on getting healthy, not picturing the worst possible option, because if your body is fighting cancer, your state of mind is important. Get information but do not self-diagnose, get the opinion of several doctors, they are trained to recognize and diagnose, you are not, so you aren't doing yourself any favors. Keeping a positive outlook is the best you can do for yourself. You might need radiation therapy and after a hysterectomy you will experience most likely signs of menopause, check with your doctor which hormone treatment is available, but there are also countless natural remedies that can help you (red clover, evening primrose oil, etc.), you need your energy to get better, you won't have energy if you're panicking and running yourself ragged with fear.
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