LaTigresse
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I think that is the flip side of the coin of this wonderful method of communication. We invest so heavily is perceived personalities, somewhere, out there.........we create expectations of the people we imagine them to be. We project so many of our own qualities onto those personalities. In this case, we projected sound mental health, and.........actual physical bodies. We projected our own version of reality. So in a sense, shame on us. It's a pretty broad assumption.......considering all of the possible alternatives. I know I came across like a bull in a china shop.....it's one of my 'charms'. I understand people being hurt, angry, or even wanting to give the cyber hand flip and say something like "don't care, never understood why anyone cared or believed". I get that, all of it. I also get that, in our own little world, our feelings of betrayal, hurt, anger, whatever.....are very easily justified. Based upon OUR OWN reality, values, morality........and mental soundness. When Bob wrote me a few weeks ago with his fears and what he was going to do........I totally knew that it was a powder keg that was likely to blow. And it did. Understandably. Here is a secret......I almost wonder if a profile I have been communicating with a lot in the last month, on the other side, that went wonky this last week......isn't another creation. Now that is going to fucking suck. I kinda liked the old broad and had a few crusty hopes of her actually being a standup dame and getting out from behind the computer. Yet, call me crazy.......I just keep going back to the whole idea of no matter how much these personalities fuck with me, us, whatever........the totally fucked up agony of the person behind it smacks me between the eyes. And I just cannot get nasty mad. Just really sad.....for them. My life is going to go on. All the wonderful and amazing stuff that makes me happy stays. I've got no one here sobbing in misery. I am not watching anyone I love hurting. That is my own selfish rational. But the disgusting ooey gooey middle of me, is still feeling for someone/s hurting. It's no different than how I feel when I walk by the bridges in Iowa City and get screamed at by the homeless guys living underneath. It's not personal, it's their hell. The human being inside of me hurts for the human being in them. I cannot rage against them for their actions against me when I know they didn't choose to be the way they are. Not really.
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My twisted, self deprecating, sense of humour, finds alot to laugh about, in your lack of one! Just because you are well educated, articulate, and can use big, fancy words, properly........does not mean you are right!
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