mons
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LadyH Your so right but I am so upset, I am glad she is there but it was just so hard, with my son who happen to come by after no show for a month, then he tell me not to call him! I wished I had beaten him badly so I could say "yes" I did abuse you!!! I think he has lost his mind, I am so lost tonight or this earlier morning I usually so happy and fun but this is not one of those days! LadyH she is doing good but they word it as heart failure! I say it and it scares the life out of me I called her and upset her, our other son was to bring me my bank card and my house keys! He decided to go home and then call me, I am seeing red, lol I have been cursing and screaming! They yes the children treat my twin and I like they are the Adults and we are the Children! I think it is do to the fact we have dolls and always had them! As children we never had toys my father the engineer was mean so no toys for anyone! He wanted us to hate as he did, a doll was a doll to me and it did not matter what color it was! He lied they made dolls for all kids! But back to our children my son when he came he lol looked through out the cabinets checking for BAD THINGS! I let him, I did this because I have a horrible temper, and if it made him feel not guilty for not coming to see his second mom then go ahead! But I love who I am, my dollhouse and miniature things make me so happy so fulfilled, it is healthy my mind is clear and it helps with the abuse I had as a child! My twin Joan and I was abuse and it was bad! So the dolls and 8 dollhouse make us feel so great I would not change it for anything! I am going to give my dollhouse to a museum , I have one that there are only there that exist! I rather do this then have the kids just not care about! This does have something to do with health and saftey mental health! There is nothing like a hobbies and BDSM is that and a lifestyle! Oh thank you for listening it been one hard night for me but LadyH your so right this hospital thing for Joan is right! I want her better before she comes home! I am not lonely only alone for right now! LadyH she did have an allegry to meds they gave her! She and I have so many allergies to they are concern if we ever have an infection we better watch out! As children we were never sick so now we get something we need we must watch out and be careful and I carry "epi pen"! The shingles pain will last for sometime we found out so I will make sure nothing makes her upset lol with my kids (which they are very good intellgent and honest) but they are how we rasied them trust is something a person must earn from them! I had to keep their uncle my brother away from them he was a he was a abuser of children, but the strangest thing is I did not remember but I knew never to leave him alone with the kids! Joan had bought me a miniature working clock, and so many other things, I think the must exciting thing that happen to us was when for over 20 years we had a miniature painting and one day about 2 years ago it felt apart, and behind it was a real oil miniature painting! Now that is fun, I have calm down and writing helps, me okay did anyone happen to see how well I am writing? How well it is understood and all? It was someone from CM A person who did what no one could do for all of my life, now I am so proud to write here and I am understood, how great is that for making my life wonderful and blessed! jane( I also talk to much )lol thanks to all
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