MistressDarkArt
Posts: 5178
Status: offline
|
Shiftyw, I feel your pain. I mean, I literally feel your pain. After a variety of debilitating health events, surgeries, and agonzing recovery periods I empathize with your experience. 7 years ago I literally went from a hard-charging life-long athlete to a bed-ridden chronic pain invalid in a few short weeks. It made me so depressed I had suicidal ideation for the first (and hopefully only) time in my life. I didn't really want to die; I just wanted my old life back SO BADLY. Yet today, I am happy, relatively healthy and have returned to many activities at about 60% level. I accomplished this through just one great counseling session where it was hammered home that when everything in life gets thrown up in the air to this extent, it is guaranteed to not come down in the same place, so get used to the idea of reinvention. Here's how I reinvented: Learned and practiced restorative yoga daily, sometimes several times a day. Some days this was more mental than asanas (poses). Eventually I became comfortable that this less-active form of exercise was still exercise and just as beneficial. Yoga taught me how to work with my 'new' body', use my breath, ease my physical and emotional pain, and spilled over into every aspect of my life for the better. Established a healthy relationship between pain meds/activities. At first I was stoic about not using meds. Once I realized that occasional usage got me back into activities I loved and considered essential for my good health, I titrated dosage so that I used as little as possible to still enjoy the activity without feeling too invincible, thus reinjuring myself. I prioritized the med use: contra dance: always OK. Gigs and once a week band practice: always OK. Socializing/dining out: maybe OK. Routine hiking, swimming, walking, bicycle riding: not ok. Lying around watching movies in comfortable positions with heat and ice to take up the slack: never OK. Insomnia due to pain: different meds for sleep, no pain meds (pain meds make me want to be active; I know, weird.) Btw, I never developed an addiction to pain meds. When I felt better, I tapered in 10 days on my own, surprising my doctor who was ready to write a refill. It took about 6 weeks to get my energy back once discontinued, and though I'm still in varying levels of chronic pain I control it, not the other way around. I do still use 1/2 doses every once in a while for special events. Accept help, and ask for it if needed. F*ck, this was the absolute hardest for me. So humiliating. I didn't want to be a burden on anyone. What changed my mind was observing how I felt when helping others in need. I like it and it makes me feel good. So, with no possible use being had in none of us feeling good, I changed my tune. Heating pads. OMG, I have 6 of them. They make driving and sitting for long periods bearable (use a 12v inverter in the car). Take them to bed with you. For that matter, take them everywhere with you. I learned not to give two figs what it might look like if I went out to an event and brought my yoga blankets and heating pad. Hell, I'd go to a lecture, find a spot near an electrical outlet, put my blankets down, lie on the floor with my feet elevated on the chair (only comfortable position I could find) and the heating pad under my back and neck. People were surprisingly indulgent about this. They were probably envious too, as they fidgeted in their uncomfortable chairs, crossing and recrossing their numb legs! I routinely used them in yoga class, too. If ice is your friend, take it with you wherever you go. Hell, take ice AND heat! And cotton or wool blankets to support your body and make the floor or your chairs comfortable. Frequent applications of Sombra Warm Therapy. http://www.amazon.com/Sombra-Therapy-Natural-Relieving-8-Ounce/dp/B000WZOJCI Put a cold pack on top of that; it's heavenly and very bright-feeling. Mobility 2 (chinese herb combo), recommended by my acupuncturist. Good stuff (lost 10 lbs on it too, without even trying). http://www.amazon.com/Health-Concerns-Mobility-270-tab/dp/B000S92N9O Acupuncture and massage. I found a miraculous woman who will do a 50/50 hour for a very reasonable $65. Most important: embrace the philosophy that pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Feel free to pm me on the other side if you'd like to know more about any of these modalities. I wish you good health and wisdom gained. Best of luck returning to a happy life (notice I did not say 'life as you knew it').
|