krikket
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Joined: 11/17/2004 From: Washington, DC Metro Area Status: offline
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Some like lying, half-truths, drugs, and poor personal higene pretty easy to list. There are, however, a couple subtle things, like a undermining my self-confidence, eatting away at me emotionally that i'm not sure i'd immediately see coming, but i certainly hope so. i've worked really hard on my self-image, and i pray i'd be strong and alert enough, but it a worry for me now. A quick example -- just before my separation i landed the absolutely perfect job for me, and i truly love it, my boss and everyone i worked with. i was the exec. secretary for the director of a computer school (long since defunt now). These people were just great, very supportive, but i can remember saying thing like "i'm no good at computers, and i'm terrible at math"..lol. Finally one of the instructors had had enough of me cutting myself down. He asked me who had done such a "number on me", and i admit i was lost for an answer. He pointed out to me that i was the school's sr. secretary, not an each job, and...i did his payroll, so would i please stop saying i was lousy in math. i realized he had a point..lol. When i thought back, i knew that it was my ex who constantly told me those things, and after a number of years i believed him. Now, i pray like hell i'm strong enough i'd not only see that happening, but do something about it too. Cheers, ya'll.. jimini
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"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom." by A. Nin When your heart speaks take good notes.
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