cuffnspankme
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Ok, I am going to vent, bitch and maybe cry here, so just stay with me to the end. I posted last night that I ended things with John. I should explain how things actually went down. I had not heard from him in a week as of yesterday. I tried numerous times to contact him, ask him what was wrong, trying to figure things out. No response. Things had been slowly changing since he came here to meet me in August. We didn't talk as much on the phone or online. There were weeks he wouldn't hardly talk to me at all. He just seemed different sorta. I don't know. Maybe I was too understanding of his always having one thing or another come up and not being able to talk to me. I don't know. I don't get it. I am a big girl, I can take rejection. Why do men do that? Or women for that matter? Why not just be honest and say that things are no longer working and that you need to move on? grrrrrrrrrrrrr I am sad and hurt and pissed. I don't understand. Should I actually call him and pin him down about this? One week of no contact at all, I had to end it. I deserve better then that sort of treatment. I really need a fucking hug too. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. the high from playing with Ryan has worn off and now I feel what I feel and it sucks ass. I had so much hope and now nothing. I think I am done for now.
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I do not know why it is, but the condition of slavery makes a woman very beautiful. It removes inhibitions to the manifestation of her femininity and her deepest needs.
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