tiggerspoohbear
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I admit I hope my dearheart LaviLove is having a good day. I admit love to all the ladies here, lots of hugs and squishes and kissed included. I admit I spent all day Sunday sleeping on and off, never turned on the tv, just read some. I admit I finally went out today to do much needed groceries. Now I should have enough to get me through until my chq the 30th. I admit I hate living below the poverty level, but am so thankful my dad sends me financial help every month and doesn't begrudge me the money. I admit I never thought I'd be in this position at my age, but I can't work and going out is a crippling feeling. I admit the mental health dept did call me to check on me after my lil sexual harrassment adventure and will arrange for me to have a mobile team come see me and help me in any way I need. On a permanent basis, not just once like other agencies only to forget about me. I admit there are days and weeks where looking at the mess I live in is quite discouraging, and I need help in getting things straightened out so that I can actually move in here without smacking into things all the time. I admit that I have to eat regular meals b/c of the diabetes II but I can't make myself hungry. I admit my dad understands that when I have a really hard time, I need the comfort of hearing his voice and being told "I love you" from him, and he's agreed that not being able to come to my immediate rescue is something he can deal with as long as I feel better just hearing his voice. He's my dad, my rock, the man I look up to and love with all my heart. I admit his g/f is more of a mom to me than my own mother was, she loves me for me, and her entire family has accepted me as their sister also. I am thankful for that. I admit some days are good, some are bad, but I try my best to live in the moment and not dwell on the bad. I admit hugs to all those that need them, and Cryptic is not an asshole, anger is quite allowed and I wish i could vocalize mine sometimes, but I internalize it all and that causes more problems for me. I admit I'm doing my best to take my meds on schedule, but it's no easy go, especially when I know they need to be changed so badly, I'm out of whack, recognize it, and know that things need to change since winter is coming on and the yearly S.A.D. is going to kick in hard.
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"RABBIT IS GOOD, RABBIT IS WISE". "I'm a baaa-aaad pussycat".
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