Sky42
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Joined: 3/19/2007 Status: offline
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If/when I need to be punished, it's horrible. Not the punishment itself, but the fact that I failed my owner. It's absolutely horrible. I'd rather get it over with as quick as possible, so that I know that the failure has been delt with so that she (and I) can focus on other things. True punishment, for a lot of us, consists of being ignored or deprived of our owners/Dom's touch (after all, pulling out the whip isn't effective on someone who likes being whipped). For me, that's like a double punishment. Not only do I not recieve her touch, but because of me she does not get the pleasure of touching/playing with me. Of course, again for me, the same actions that can bring pleasure, such as spanking, if done for punishment also are effective. It's not the act itself, but the meaning behind it that makes those neurons fire saying "Oh this is great!" or "Oh god I'm sorry please stop I've learned my lesson!" With that sort again, I feel horrible before it happens. No fear, because one, I know my owner won't damage me. She may hurt me incredibly badly, but not damage me, and two, it was my fault that I failed her, so I need to accept the responsibility and repercussions for it.
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