AAkasha
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Why? Because you can always go see a professional dominatrix. Much has been said about pro femdoms. But when it comes right down to it, at least male submissives/bottoms have an *option* (in some cities, dozens of options) to see a woman in a very nicely equipped dungeon, no strings attached, to explore a wide variety of fantasies and roleplaying. The common argument for this is: A femdom has dozens of submissive men willing to serve. Just open your collarme email. There are men willing to do ANYTHING and you don't even have to pay them! The answer to this is simple - nothing is free. Period. And I don't mind that. That's why I am MORE happy to compensate a man with cash to ensure that there are no obligations, and that I will get what I want, and then that will be it. Over. Unless I decide I want to pay him again. There's a wonderful sense of comfort knowing that a man will not expect anything in return. My relationship is moving from monogamy into poly and I expect to be there by the end of next year, but we aren't rushing it, because our relationship is important. In our discussions about how we feel about things, we always end up at the same place: Both of us would be *most* comfortable if there was a way I could spend my hour (or three of four) every few months (on average) in a man (if he was gay, even better) in a safe environment so I could scratch my itches but it would be on a purely professional basis. There would be no 6 months of courting, no going to the movies, no long chats on the phone talking about hopes and dreams, no romance bubbling under the surface, no butterflies upon first meeting and embrace, no temptations to see what just *one* kiss might feel like. I don't need/want any of that, but the fact of the matter is, if you develop a strong bond with someone, and then you engage in something as intense as good power exchange, shit happens. And, it's not *fair* to deny a submissive man that if he wants it. Most of them say "oh I don't need that, I am fine with being an anonymous rag doll for you to use," but it just doesn't work that way. Feelings get involved. No matter how much I try to stick to a path of a transactional power exchange, if I am *not* paying the man for his time with cash, I am paying in some other way. And submissive men want a variety of things, ranging from their own fetishes being met to a sense of belonging or being needed -- and those are tricky, tricky emotions to toy with when you know that ultimately you are going to leave him just when he gets attached. Forget that, it makes me feel like crap! I would rather give him $400 and take what I want and be on my way. It's best for ALL parties involved. I know I am not in the minority, and that somewhere, there are some other femdoms that have the same urges. It isn't that I don't value deep, emotional BDSM. I do. I have that. I have that and it's so good that I don't want to risk fucking it up. But I want to have my cake and eat it too. What I seek, on the side, is not to compensate for anything missing in my primary relationship; I seek something my primary relationship cannot ever provide. Namely - anonymous, physical, random, intense interaction with a skilled bottom who can amuse me with a fresh sense of surrender but then be out of my life when it's over. Because of that, I can't help but envy male submissives. They have a lot of options. I have an odd appetite. When I wrestle with this in my head, I always come back to the same conclusion: I don't want/need it THAT bad. I do get all that I could ever want - and more - in my primary relationship. But there are times when I really have an itch I want to scratch, and if there was a market for it, I'd find it to be a very safe and fair option. Akasha
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