Termyn8or
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fr Perhaps not every last word but I have been reading with interest. A trigger. Interesting, when is a trigger not a trigger ? Technically it always is, but if there is no ammo in the gun, if the safety is on, or your finger isn't on it, it's not so much of a trigger as it is not going to function. Yes, the trigger analogy might be quite apt. It is too late once the bullet leaves the barrel. In the beginning is the time to break the cycle. Easy ? Hell no. Plus the world is generally a pain in the ass. It is hard to walk out my front door and deal with people, I find many ignorant stupid people out there, there are all types. Those who will risk the lives of dozens of people on the highway to save a few seconds of their precious time, and those are the OK ones. Others actually seem to thrive on controversy, and sometimes those people are poison. Thing is, when you go out there, are YOU looking for controversy ? People do it unconciously it seems. When you are already predisposed to anger, anything is a hair trigger, someone not using a turn signal could be considered a justifiable reason for the destruction of all human life on this planet. A lightbulb burning out could justify burning the house down. Anything goes. The analogy stands, because bullets do not have eyes. They go where you send them. However if you are not the bullet, the trigger means nothing. And came4, enjoy the wanking, but realize that you would not want me around the way I used to be. You might learn to hate me, and even worse you might learn to love me. At that point anytime we're apart and the phone rings you would wonder if I got myself killed, or wound up in jail somewhere. Not to mention the literally close to a million dollars over the years it took for lawyers and all this, to keep my ass out of the sling. Getting off that merry go round was one of the best things I ever did in life. And to this day, decades later, sometimes I wonder if there isn't someone still out there pissed at me, waiting for some very cold revenge. Live that for awhile and you might think long and hard before going off on a tantrum or whatever one wishes to call it. And I can't blame booze. I just about quit booze because well, it is like loading and taking the safety off. I am the bullet. But what I did I still did. Others drank and didn't do it. The booze didn't put anything there that wasn't there in the first place, and it also can't take it away. Drugs are about the same, and that's why I offer this perspective, because permenent solutions rarely come in a bottle. Well, just like the Iraq war, exit strategy can be problematic. Even if it can't be done quickly, I urge everyone to become medication free if it is at all possible. If it takes a weaning process, moving, a change of jobs or even say a divorce, it is better to not have to go to the drugstore to live. Best wishes and good luck to everyone. I think we need it. T
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