Toppingfrmbottom
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In another thread, someone said I'd like to see you more active and I told him my past history with food, and holly came in and said well sorry but they didn't make you stuff that food in your mouth YOU DID, and I said yes I did. I am telling you all a fact that fat people are discounted, for other problems based on being fat, and people say oh bull shit.
NO it's not bullshit, Fat people are told to loose weight and loose weight FIRST , and if you have any conditions that stop that from happening you're blamed.
Many many people, have gone through this, they have been discounted and blamed and told yada yada yada, only to get proper help and then every one says and see's oh sorry it's not just that you need to loose weight but you have.......... and it's causing........... which increases.........
but when I say it it's discounted as bullshit that I am blaming dr's, that I didn't force the group home to shove food in my mouth, I chose to do so.
And when I own that yup I did, but only cause I was trying to help people, some of you on here say oh come on you were not trying to help people, you just want to blame someone AND I DON'T.
YES I said I Saw how saying james made me....... and I can't if you........ is abusive and I said so and said how we're fixing it and people said I wasn't listening. I DO LISTEN, and you're right I had absolutely no right to hit james, if he hit me, ok then tell him to get away from me, tell him it's not right to whap me or hit me or pinch me or any thing else, AND DO NOT DO IT BACK, and if you do, then do not say he made me, say this behavior made me so mad, I decided to hit back because it felt like the thing to do and I am not mentally well for believing hitting is justified.
but when I say that every one says something like oh you're not listening unless we pat you on the head, I just showed I was listeningdidn't I, I just said yes it's never right to hit back, I should enforce my own disipline and health by walking away and not hitting back but I chose to hit.
In this thread and yet another one people tell me I am selfish and spoiled and self indulgent for needing to carry a stuffed toy and when I explain why stuffed toys help me and why a hospital where you can't have the things you need like isolation and closing the door, people then say well guess what princess, it's NOT ABOUT YOU, People are saying you're not listening you're not getting help and I am, and I am sick because of my attempts to get help, and then people say oh phoney balloney, you've been sick for years stop blaming trying to get help on being sick.
I admit I am sick because I havemental problems, and that's fine ok, but I am also now pychically sick from med side affects that I didn't have a week ago, my health, my body health has deteriorated so much from the pych med an the side affects and a bladder in fection or kidney infection what ever the hell dr's are calling it now one told me it was kidney and my gp says it's not.
I do not blame situations, I do take responcibility for myself, I ran out the moment I first admited to myself I needed help and told my dr and got a medical therapist and got help, and if I didn't I wouldn't b quote:
ORIGINAL: Daddysredhead
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ORIGINAL: Toppingfrmbottom
I may be shooting from the hip and if I am excuse me because I think you're trying to say where my talking about myself is different from others because they state a problem and you think I blame things.
See it as blaming others if you want. I don't care, I don't blame any one else and when I share where I am coming from, like getting fat from trying to help every one else and not worrying about me, I'm not blaming any one. It's a statement, simple as that.
If I was blaming someone I'd be like well the group home should not of made you get a zero for eating or not eating, they forced every one to eat until refusal with that policy.
I didn't say that I said I wanted to avoid other friends of mine being penalized so I took their food. I was alo hungry a lot and could stand to pack away 5 helpings so I did, I took their problem and made it mine, and I suffered dearly for it in weight gain, saying that isn't plaching blame, and saying I know what's wrong and what I need to be ok, isn't wah wah wah,. It's self awareness of the problem.
You want to see it as blame and wah wah wah, go right ahead, you are anyway. I know who I am and what I am, and you're assesment of what I am or am not doing to help myself won't change that I know I am beating that path of getting help relentlessly even if I am not going to dump my bf or make him dump me.
What you are failing to see is that no one is talking about you eating a lot at a group home. That has nothing to do with the instant case at hand.
The instant case is the idea that you take little responsibility for your actions and reactions when you post things like, "James made me hit him" or "He got what he deserved because he wouldn't leave me alone." Do you see where that is blame-shifting? You accept no blame for what you do and how you respond, but rather place the blame on someone else? People can appreciate honesty, and there have been times when you have said, "Hey, I was wrong." That's a good step forward, but to say, "I was wrong, but only because someone made me behave badly" is a cop-out, and no one is going to have one ounce of sympathy for that type of thing.
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