Phoenixpower
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I admit I had one of my worst nights ever... I admit I barely slept and when I was about to fall asleep I think I halluzinted (sort of) with (I am convinced of that!!!) creatures moving away from me which aren't there... I admit I felt how I imagine it could be when you try to get off drugs...it was truly an awful night I admit, as much as I love and miss my grandparents...I don't want them to haunt here, and last night it sort of felt like that.... I admit it's not the first time that I am a bit uncomfortable in that matter as (many weeks ago) I decided to leave my room upstairs and slept on the sofa instead...cause I believed to hear something in my room which shouldn't be there... I admit in those weird moments last night I was glad to have the cats with me...even when it meant that pepper created quite a stinky mess in the hallway last night...thank god my parent's don't have carpet floors and I hope mum's shoes survived the washing maschine (as I didn't take them out since then and won't go down there tonight either). I admit I hope to get more sort of proper sleep tonight as gosh, do I need it. I admit I can't wait to finally get my health insurance card to demand my night meds again (for my fibromyalgia) cause whilst my fibro is doing pretty ok thanks to the climate and reduced stress right now, I loved at times, how it knocked me out...though, of course I know I can't say to the doc that this is the main reason that I continue to want it I admit on top of that, once I managed to sleep in the morning, amazon woke me up three times, due to sending their books from different depots thank you I admit I started with the socks for M but the 2nd one is giving me a freaking headache. I admit I teared it off now the 3rd time as one corner of it (between the needles) just was weirdly thin, compared to the other corners... I admit the 1st one isn't done yet, but I am talking about the 2nd one as I want to knit them almost at the same time (sort of doing 3 rows at one and then doing 3 rows at the other one...instead of doing one completely and then starting all over again on the other one). I admit I hope to get new ideas tomorrow about the main part of it when my final amazon order gets here... I admit its time now for a relaxing bath....without the feeling of living with a poltergeist I admit the boss from another potential employer contacted me today and asked me to do the hospitation this friday to sunday instead of next week monday to wednesday... I admit I am not overly impressed as that looks to me that, once again, it won't happen a proper reflection about those three days with him afterwards (cause he certainly won't be there on a sunday) just as it happened at the last one... I admit, though, I try not to let affect the last arse this meeting now, as - to be fair - this boss was so far by far the only one consistent with a very nice and polite attitude towards me on a regular basis (he called me now 5 times since I had my interview there) and many of the others I met could learn from him. I admit he suggested I could stay until monday, cause there they have a pedagogic day at which day all the houses will present the goal they were working on and how... I admit, whilst it certainly could be interesting, I doubt I will stay, cause he didn't sound like as if he would suggest the reflection of those 3 days afterwards on such a day either and so quite frankly I prefer to get home again asap, than to waste my time at a potential employer who so far (at that stage) isn't my employer...am really not bored enough to waste my free time at a potential employer who isn't my boss....
< Message edited by Phoenixpower -- 9/5/2011 11:39:11 AM >
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