CynthiaWVirginia
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Joined: 2/28/2010 From: West Virginia, USA Status: offline
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I admit that three weeks ago, my slave's PSA(?) blood test was a 4.6. His urologist scheduled a needle biopsy for January 5th. bo tried to get out of the surgery by...laying off the marathon sessions with the fuck machine and other anal toys. (His urologist said there was a chance that he had irritated his prostate and that would have jacked up his points.) After behaving for three weeks bo asked for another test. This time it was 16! His urologist told him that "it was very likely cancer". We're still waiting for the needle biopsy to let us know for certain and to know more details. While he's knocked out for the needle biopsy, he also needs to have kidney surgery to break up a huge stone he's had in there for over 20 years. There's going to be a stint so the pieces can fall out. He's going to have a very rough time. I admit that I cancelled Christmas (in my home) this year...I just wasn't in the mood. I admit that I cried "Uncle!" to my doctor earlier this year...and asked for a nerve pill. I take only one pill per day, instead of the recommended three, because taking just one pill makes me sleep 12-16 hours per day. When I can, I take just one pill per three days (for the first two days I sleep, and on the third I'm actually awake to get some housework done and my panic attack trigger isn't a hair trigger. Psst, lol, my "nerve pill" was intended by the manufacturer to be an allergy pill but doctors are writing it for panic disorders. I have 2-3 allergy seasons per year to get through. I can't wait to see how this medicine helps in the coming year, when my seasonal sneeze is driving me nuts. I admit that my doctor had to promise me that THIS nerve pill, unlike the others, won't make me put on 10-30 lbs per year (yes, in spite of strict dieting and the two hours per day of exercise I used to do). She promised that it wouldn't. I thought I'd never go back on anxiety/depression meds again, and was off of them for 12+ years...but I'm happy with these, even though they're not perfect. (They're so tiny but I'm thinking of splitting them in half to see if I can stay awake longer.) I also admit that...though I've said I will never get into poly, lol, it seems that I will probably drag myself into it (yes, kicking and screaming). Time for me to dust off that book I bought more than ten years ago, The Ethical Slut, so I won't be totally clueless (and doomed to learn by making my own mistakes). I'd rather learn from the mistakes of others, thank ya very much. My slave has just realized that he is gay or bisexual. I'm going to help him explore that path when all this cancer stuff is behind us.
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