From: Somewhere in TX
When I was feeling suicidal, I checked myself into an ER who got me into a hospital and started treatment. Several different medications (I would develop a tolerance to some drugs) and it took a hospital in TN to realize that an antiseizure medicine was what I needed when the SSRIs refused to work (I also have fibromyalgia). Came back to TX and with the paperwork from TN, got treatment from my local MHMR who sees me every 2 to 3 months without having to do any therapy, but self reliance. My meds work at least, with one dosage change when it was discovered I was too zombie like. Was able to get my disability since my career had to deal with the public sector and I could not handle it without retreating into a reclusive state. Now I am living with my mom and we take care of each other.
Without looking at your profile (Honey, I am about to get real on you), most women will find you needy. You're what we call a "do me" and that is not appetizing to most Dommes. We are the ones in control, not you. You get your satisfaction from doing what YOU want, not what we want. That is not how it works. There is a guy call ResidentSadist who has an excellent reading list of books pertaining to the lifestyle. Look him up on the forums and follow his link. Also, depending where you reside (usually in large cities) there are munches. Go casual, not kinkified. Strike up a conversation with the people, not just the females. LISTEN!!! The folks will give advice on how to move in the lifestyle. I am on 2 groups for a major TX city and I try to make it there when I can afford it. You have to be willing to give, not just 'request' for someone to do what you want. I get requests from subs all the time, most of which being 'do mes' as well. All they care about is getting their rocks off, frankly no substance. This lifestyle is of trust and mutual respect and quite frankly it can have abusers in it.
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