SusanofO
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juliaoceania: You are right. I know you are. This really has been a little one-sided. I offerred to go to him because I don't have a job right now, and he is working. He did offer to split costs; I didn't take him up on that because I was afraid I would end up feeling "obligated" somehow if things did not go well. Maybe he'd have come here if I'd asked, but by last Thursday (or whenever it was) that I asked for the ID and he didn't give it to me, and even seemed miffed I'd asked, I was just so ticked off, I didn't offer, I just said: "Don't contact me anymore, okay?" I was sort of thinking I said that maybe in the heat of the moment, and if he had a chance to maybe make it right, he would. But of course, if his position is that he's been right from the start (and it is), then he's not gonna do that. I mean, people have a right to do whatever the heck they wanna do, and to insist on whatever they want. By the same token, I too, have a right say, "No way." IMO, if he really wanted to "compromise" he'd have done it. This just let me know he considers his needs more important, right from the out-set. That the submissive one should be in "serve" mode is fine with me, and pretty much a "given" but not, you are right, when they are compromising things like fearing for basic possible safety. He knows that, if he's thoroughly thought it over. He's a very intelligent guy. He must have his reasons (he's told me a few), and they probably seem very sensible to him. Maybe if I were him, they'd seem really reasonable, too. I am not saying he is a monster. But he's not exactly giving me the opportunity to9 verify he's not. Plus, I am not him. I am me. You know juliaoceania, this makes me think of a conversation I had today with a woman who is studying to be a Presbyterian. This is not meant to start any anti-particular religion thread aside, or anything (I couldn't care less what religion anyone is, of if they even have one) but - The minister was teaching her the theory of "predesitination" - that religion believes that people have "pre-destined" lives, and end-routes for their souls, etc. and that they just play out their "predestined" roles while here on Earth; that people really are "pre-destined", even before they are born, for either heaven or hell, and that not much they do while they are on Earth is ever really going to influence where they go after they die (heaven or hell). That whole idea really sounds a little depressing to me, but anyway, on with the thought... Even though she will probably still become a Presbyterian, my friend just couldn't really get herself to believe all of this "pre-destination" theory. She couldn't get her head around it (I can't blame her, either, IMO, no offense to any Presbyterians out there) but anyway - she turned to the minister and asked: "But Dr. So-and-so, can you answer a question for me? **How is it even possible for you to tell me what I think?" It s a philosphical question, too. I mean - sure, it is possible to tell another person what you think they should think, maybe. But - that wasn't what she meant. See what I mean? She was really asking: How could you possibly ever be inside another's head and know what they are thinking? And therefore whether it is "bad" or "good"? You can't. I don't know what anyone's motives are, all anyone can do is go on what they think they see (part of that being verifiable ID info). How can a Dominant, (or anyone, for that matter) really tell me (or anyone else) what I think? (and therefore, whether I'd ever be destined for heaven or hell, before I was ever born, etc.? Or that what I thought (or asked for) was just not making sense? Or that it meant I was just not "good enough", or something? I suppose he could turn that notion around, to work for himself, too, just as easily (although it certainly makes more sense to me, from my perspective). Anyone who reads this, if they are a male Dominant, could read that comment and see big giant red-flag:, as far as my possibly being "cooperative" as in "Whoah! she is not all submissive" signs going off (I think I am a Switch, btw). But I think the notion applies, even if one is completely a submissive, too. I really do. I thought it was kind of interesting, as a question. And I am probably going waaaay off on a tangent here, and being unclear, to top it off. Bottom-line: I just don't think he can tell me I'm wrong to want this, no matter what his reasons are, really. - Susan
< Message edited by SusanofO -- 3/10/2007 7:48:24 PM >
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"Hope is the thing with feathers, That perches in the soul, And sings the tune without the words, And never stops at all". - Emily Dickinson
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