stella41b
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OK: if i look into a mirror at the moment, today (not yesterday even) but today i see a proud and whole woman, with an open heart who treasures absolute truth above all else. What fucking "absolute truth"? The only thing you treasure is your own delusions. quote:
Now i also feel that there is no such thing as the truth and what i mean by that absolute truth is truth that is a shared phenomena. Clearly it wasn't shared! You fooled yourself into ignoring everything but whatever the fuck it was you wanted to see. He saw you as a cheap and easy fuck and you pretended he didn't. quote:
I can this time hold a mirror up to myself and say I followed faultlessly in as deep a service as I could. Serve and he will CUM is what you got woman. It wasn't whether or not your service was faultless, it was your inability to examine your patterns and learn from them that is at fault. quote:
But their was an omission and a lie and a total withdrawal and lack of caring after the collar,,,,no one there to service. And you just keep getting fooled, over and over and over and over again. But NO, that can't be a pattern, that CAN"T be anything YOU choose to participate in...nope, it is all that OTHER person's fault. Here we go folks, this is EXACTLY why you should be careful about seeking advice or asking questions of an intimate nature when it comes to what some of us call 'the lifestyle'.. It's very easy, no in fact it's way too easy for people to jump in there and jump on the 'you should have' bandwagon. Very easy to point out mistakes and shortcomings after the event. Why, it's almost as easy as taking sides. Have I been in the same situation as the OP? No not the same situation, I have never accepted a collar nor have I ever been a slave in any of my relationships, but you know I have been in similar situations. The way I see it when you start talking in terms of 'Master', 'slave', 'collar' you're playing for the high stakes, you really are. The highest possible stakes. 'This ain't hopscotch you know', here I'm quoting my own play on this exact same subject. That this all came together too quickly of course is evident, and it's as evident as looking at Mount Everest. But it's also just as evident that two people, both Master and slave took a risk, one in offering the collar and the other in accepting the collar, and it's also clear that neither the risk nor the relationship worked out for whatever reason. All relationships are a risk, each and every single one of them, and you only know the person as much as you've had contact with them, and you can only be as sure of the relationship only as far as the chances you give someone. Not everything works out in life. In fact when you stop and think about it, and I mean really stop and think about it, not much works out in life. Success is usually outweighed by the failure and the attempts. The way I see it for this particular spin of the roulette wheel the collar was put forward as the stake and the prize. Was there an element of risk calculation? Yes there was, and this was based on the chemistry, that emotional, psychological and spiritual connection between two people. It was most likely this chemistry which was felt by both, examined by both, and accepted, and the roulette wheel was spun. If you're not prepared to lose then you have no place in the casino, no place at the racetrack, and you certainly have no place in any sort of relationship. Too bad that the numbers never came up. All of a sudden what appeared to be wonderful and 'perfect' wasn't, heaven turned into hell. Was there deceit? Perhaps. Was someone fooled? No doubt. Was there an ulterior motive? Does it matter at this point? You see you got two people involved, two people who have lost (no, there's no winners here, not from what I can see) and two people left to reflect in the cold light of day what they should have done differently. Now from my perspective this must be a pretty miserable place to be. Even more so when you have people coming in from the outside oh so willing to add to that misery. Why? I don't know, ask them, not me. There but for the grace of God.. There but for the grace of God.
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