Eivarden
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Joined: 4/15/2009 Status: offline
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Sorry for this Necro bump. But this is something that does need to be shared with allot of sub males. AAkasha, you asked if allot of subs would be a sub, knowing it would be harder. I would say yes. Most of the guys I know who are subs, are subs because of their inability to court the normal way. But porn being the main influence? I don't know about that one. Most of the subs I know, don't really look at D/s porn. Can't speak for everyone, so maybe this is a small percent. But I actually didn't like the concept of a D/s relationship when I first saw a BDSM porn. Heck, I stopped watching it a few seconds into it. Seemed too fake. I happened to be courted by a Lesbian, who thought I was a girl. I told her I wasn't a girl, but she decided to just keep going. I ended up playing as her girlfriend in a sort of way. But the over all role reversal was simply one word, "Fulfilling". Honestly, I've never felt that comfortable in any of my previous relationships, something always seemed wrong. I did the courting. I played their Dom, since all my Ex's wanted a Dom for a BF. But I never felt with them, what I felt with her. I know most Dommes reply with "Of course subs need to court us, were are still women." is a bit unfair. That leaves most guys never knowing what it is like. I've come to terms with the fact I can't be in that sort of relationship, because I am a straight guy. I've learned how much of a sub I really am. I can't be the same kind of sub, but I'll try to be a decent sub anyways. But part of me will still always think back to her, and think anything I end up with, will only "complete me" half way. Of course I also know it is possible to be in that situation again, all I have to do... is be gay lol. But I couldn't bring myself to be gay. Thought heavily on that subject. So that is partly why I will still settle for 2nd best. If I'm not willing to accept the change (to gay) to be in that position, I will have to be willing to accept the normal role of a sub. I know my experience isn't going to be all that common, so it doesn't make "Porn contributes to this" any more false. Just throwing out some guys were not just "looking for the easy way out". (I wonder if AAkasha remembers this year old thread xD) edit: quote:
I have to wonder if a certain amount of what you've been trying to convey isn't related to the fact that you tend to like to take the role of the huntress. As such, it would seem quite logical to me that you'd prefer a man who would take the lead, exerting a degree of power and confidence up front in the initial stages of the relationship, all so you could take it away from him later as you began to take control when expressing your dominance! Actually, that does sound plausible for some Dommes.(maybe not AAkasha thought.) Would make "taking control" that much more rewarding.... maybe.
< Message edited by Eivarden -- 8/28/2009 8:21:40 PM >
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