CynthiaWVirginia
Posts: 1915
Joined: 2/28/2010 From: West Virginia, USA Status: offline
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I admit that life has quieted down and is not an endless rush anymore. I'm making better progress with my goals. My BP is consistently down to 140/80, yay! I admit that I'm not thrilled that my new doctor wants to do two surgical biopsies and yet another surgery. After sitting in a lobby "crowded" with other people for two hours before being able to see her, and then being slammed with THAT...well, all my panic attack triggers went off like blaring air raid sirens. LOL, I got in my minivan and drove 40 minutes to my other (family type) doctor and was generally hysterical. I told her that this sh*t needs to happen next year, not this year, because I need more time to pass by before I have to handle MORE sh*t. I admit that I also told her that I'm not going to undergo any "in office" biopsies up my uterus; they're going to have to knock me out cold first. I'm not afraid of surgeries, it's the pain I can't handle. Any pain meds I've ever been given over the course of my entire lifetime has never done a blessed thing to lessen the pain (except for those two times I was in the hospital and they injected me with morphine). I told her that taking one adult dose of Benadryl did "better" for my pain, at least it took a little bit of the absolute worst of it away by making me sleepy. Especially if I swallowed it down with a glass of wine. I have zero faith in their ability to cut down on the pain post surgery, and the (bladder) surgery I went through several months back is still too fresh on my mind. I admit that my insurance wouldn't pay for a blood test to see if I have diabetes, even though my family tree is littered with diabetics. My new doc ordered the test, among many more...because they took somewhere between 8 and 10 thingies of blood out of my arm. Anyway, I told them I couldn't pay for the diabetes test and skipped having it done. I'm just griping because it seems illogical not to test someone once per year (or at least ONCE) if more than eight or ten close relatives are diabetics, and I'm not looking forward to my new doc becoming irritated with me for turning down the test. I admit that my family doc is wonderful.
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