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ORIGINAL: Toppingfrmbottom

Sometimes funerals make bigger owies and resentments than not going. I know when Grandpa died, my dad was pissed off that the pastor the funeral home chose, chose to make grandpa's funeral a chance to preach to the attendee's about god and stuff, and what a phoney baloney he was trying to act like he had known Grandpa and they were dear friends.. You know the way some pastors can carry on and be come to familial in their speeches?

And I remember one time a pastor had turned a dear friend of mines funeral into a chance to preach about religious salvation and accepting god as your savior and father.

IF I may step in and just say...Maybe the guy didnt choose to go off on that tangent. Sometimes there really are legit preachers that just feel something within them that tells them that a change in sermon is needed, because maybe they feel that someone within that space needs to hear a piece of the word, that wasnt planned. Its awkward...sometimes it happens at REALLY bad times, but maybe, just maybe that one sermon makes a difference to someone and changes their whole life.

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ORIGINAL: girlygurl

I admit I loved Lushy's admit. dats funny!

I admit Red is going to teach me Braille, cause she edumacated in dat area

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ORIGINAL: Daddysredhead

Night, night, Angel!

(didja see that earlier this week, I offered to share peanut butter ice cream with you?) 

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ORIGINAL: sunshinemiss

Hi everybody,
I live in a teeny tiny place right now.  very little by way of storage, and things are a mess cause I have so much stuff!  I have the opportunity to move to another place - with my own bathroom, still small, but bigger storage, a place I can sit and write (as in an actual desk), and it has a little window.  I'm arguing with myself about the money.  That's the truth.  It's about $200 more per month.  But I think I should do it. 

I admit that making this leap... just for myself is hard.  I want to save that extra thousand bucks a year.  But in reality, I could actually stay in that place - I could have plants (which I love), there's space for setting up art work, I could even separate it with a curtain so it feels like 2 rooms.  (Teeny weeny rooms, but still).  It's a shared kitchen, there's a yoga studio one floor up, and the roof top is available for use. 

Two hundred bucks is worth that, right?  Right? 

And I would be able to sit at a desk and acually write the books I'm writing. 

I think I'm gonna do it.  What do you think?  (It's really hard for me to do this for myself....)  but... I'm in need of yoga classes, and it would be easy to get there... and well....  Yeah.  I'm gonna go do it.  I'm gonna go rent that place and start moving in.  Today.  Right now.

I'll be right back.

thanks for listening to my process (such as it is).

sunshine

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ORIGINAL: girlygurl

I admit Sir said His hand and my ass were going to have a conversation.

I admit I laughed.

I admit we're having a wonderful time at the coast.

I admit I loved Lushy's admit. dats funny!

I admit Red is going to teach me Braille, cause she edumacated in dat area

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ORIGINAL: sunshinemiss

I DID IT!

I got the place... It's a corner, so I get a teeny little window.  And hey, it's worth it... ohhh gosh... I can't believe I'm doing this.  It seems like such a little thing, but it's kind of big for me.  Thanks for the encouragement.

Angel, I never sent that thing to you... I got sicky instead.  Where to now!?!

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ORIGINAL: sunshinemiss

I DID IT!

I got the place... It's a corner, so I get a teeny little window.  And hey, it's worth it... ohhh gosh... I can't believe I'm doing this.  It seems like such a little thing, but it's kind of big for me.  Thanks for the encouragement.

Angel, I never sent that thing to you... I got sicky instead.  Where to now!?!

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ORIGINAL: KMsAngel

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ORIGINAL: sunshinemiss

Hi everybody,
I live in a teeny tiny place right now.  very little by way of storage, and things are a mess cause I have so much stuff!  I have the opportunity to move to another place - with my own bathroom, still small, but bigger storage, a place I can sit and write (as in an actual desk), and it has a little window.  I'm arguing with myself about the money.  That's the truth.  It's about $200 more per month.  But I think I should do it. 

I admit that making this leap... just for myself is hard.  I want to save that extra thousand bucks a year.  But in reality, I could actually stay in that place - I could have plants (which I love), there's space for setting up art work, I could even separate it with a curtain so it feels like 2 rooms.  (Teeny weeny rooms, but still).  It's a shared kitchen, there's a yoga studio one floor up, and the roof top is available for use. 

Two hundred bucks is worth that, right?  Right? 

And I would be able to sit at a desk and acually write the books I'm writing. 

I think I'm gonna do it.  What do you think?  (It's really hard for me to do this for myself....)  but... I'm in need of yoga classes, and it would be easy to get there... and well....  Yeah.  I'm gonna go do it.  I'm gonna go rent that place and start moving in.  Today.  Right now.

I'll be right back.

thanks for listening to my process (such as it is).

sunshine

shall be waiting for address of new place, kthx

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ORIGINAL: Toppingfrmbottom

When the shit is hitting the fan or people are upset, it's just my nature to want to be silly and goofy  to cheer them up and try to make everything all better, and naturally sometimes that's not appropriate or wanted I know that logically , I just find it hard sometimes to sit quietly and not say anything, or try to cheer the person up or to not get squirmy. I have always been that way, as far back as I can remember.

Then if my efforts to make them happy are not appreciated I get hurt, even though I know logically, it's not the proper time to try to be cute and goofy.

There's just something about other people's grief that makes me uncomfortable.

Like sometimes if we're in therapy and something I have said,  has made him cry, or something we're working on, I just really don't look over and look at him, because I don't want to see how much what I am saying or we're working on  is hurting him. Not that I don't care, just that I can't really face him to well when he's hurting.

One time he was crying and I reached out to offer my hand to him, and a stuffed toy, since  I take a stuffed toy to therapy with us, and then was hurt when he didn't notice my hand there for him t o squeeze, or want to hold the toy I offered.

And that's part of my problem, I get hurt over stupid things. I think it's part of me being so empathetic and sensitive and a little kid at heart. I just want to make the owie in the heart all better, and my little side doesn't always  like that you can't make someone else's  heart  owie all better with hugs kisses and a toy to squeeze.

I'm a very gentle soul, and other people's heart owies hurt my heart and gentle soul way to much.

I have been known to cry over complete strangers posts of heart owies on here, like when Red said she cried a bunch cause she sent her kids on vacation to SL with out her.

I think Angie might be able to work on my heart and soul being to tender.



Which is completely selfish, I think because he's faced me a ton of times when I was hurting or having a pissed off cry.