Aneirin
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Joined: 3/18/2006 From: Tamaris Status: offline
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Hello all,I feel I need to put my own thoughts in here,as this is something that has been bugging me for a while.I too was in a marriage of ten years,which was fairly sexless,she wanted it,I felt pressured to have it and was continualy compared to her ex boyfriends which is something I really did not need to know.I married her an older woman of twelve years,and took on her derranged family,sorted them out and provided a secure home.Before I really knew anything about BDSM,I was i suppose acting in a submissive manner,being the provder and fixer of everything,I was always there for everyone.But ignored my own needs to the point where when I did bring them up,I was labelled 'sick' by my wife,she having a real hatred for 'perverts',she equated a previous violent marriage partner with BDSM.I believing I was sick sought a counsellor,only to be told BDSM is not sick,a form of creative expression,I being a creative person.The problem I think is I much prefer the creative expression,prolonged foreplay,that is my thing,the end result,relief but not as good as getting there.A further kick was when I wanted to start my own family,finding out I was infertile and so with my lack of interest in sex,I felt worthless and on many occaisions contemplated suicide.I loved my wife,and would do anything for her,but I had a lack of interest in the sex that she wanted and she mine.I think she had an affair,and strangely I am ok with that,as all I wanted was for her to be happy,something I felt I could not provide fully.I have considered the asexual problem,but that only depresses.I think there is a problem in society,where we,us males are expected to be studs in the bedroom,and be interested in sex all the time,for me this is not so and sometimes I feel useless because of this stereotype.The OPs original post,I can possibly understand he might be uncomfortable with sex,much as I have been
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