PeggyO
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Joined: 1/1/2004 Status: offline
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Hello Everyone, Everyone out there judges. People judge others based on their own criteria and preferences. If you have no standards, then you don't judge - but the fact is that everyone has standards and generally measures others, particularly potentional partners, to those standards. My personal standards have to do with self-control, ethics and physical fitness. If someone is not in good physical shape, they are not attractive to me. This is not solely based on sexual attraction, but rather the fact that they cannot share my lifestyle with me. I am very athletic; I am a skilled skier, a technical rock climber, an avid outdoors person as well as a beginning martial arts practitioner. Someone who is not in good physical shape cannot share my passions. That doesn't make them ugly to me, but it does make them unattractive. The fact is that judgement enables us to determine compatibility. Those who judge the OP unattractive because of her weight obviously consider weight to be more important than prior training and being "well behaved". As others have pointed out, the OP surely judges potential dominants based on her own sets of criteria also - she surely has a personal yardstick that she uses to determine whether or not they meet her definition of "dominant" and have the qualities she associates with that role. Frankly, when someone shows themselves to be incompatible early on, I don't experience it as rejection, but instead I am glad that I didn't have to waste a lot of time one someone only to find they aren't what I am looking for. I have been rejected for any number of reasons; being a switch, being too active, being poly, being too old. Being dismissed as unsuitable out of hand for those (or other) reasons just permits me to keep looking around for people who are going to be more suitable. As everyone else has said, don't internalize it. When you internalize it you are basically saying that whatever criteria or criticism they leveled at you is something that you truly believe is wrong with you. If you truly believe that the thing they criticize (I'm guessing the weight thing is number 1) is something wrong with you, you can choose to change that. If you don't truly believe it, their criticism should be utterly meaningless and you carry on without feeling any sort of need to change yourself. The true question is, how truly comfortable are you with yourself? Once you are truly comfortable with who you are and what you look like, the views of others won't really matter much. Be well, Peggy
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