charlotte12
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ORIGINAL: Stephann Yep, that's what I said: "She enjoys things, especially, because she doesn't enjoy them." She's a unique sort of emotional masochist who enjoys humiliation, and 'abuse' scenes. She actively sought a relationship with a man who would make her do things she 'didn't' want to do, yet cared enough about her to make sure she wasn't actually damaged in the process. The tears are part and parcel of that satisfaction; coming to terms with years of sexual desires that were repressed, since they were so very different from what she thought she was supposed to enjoy. It doesn't mean she doesn't find satisfaction in the actual acts involved; only that (in her case) there's no cut and dried "I like this" and "I don't like that." I love steaming hot baths. They're painful for me to get in, but incredibly satisfying when I have. Stephan Hi S & c...miss you guys She and i are on the same page with this and have discussed it.....the things that he pushes me to do that i don't want to do, don't like or find too painful or distasteful are ultimately the things that deepen my submission the most and that i end up enjoying the most.....anal was the first thing in that list....the very thing that gets me off about it the most is knowing that i can't stop him, he will have what he wants and he is taking it regardless of my pain and struggling....at that point it becomes intensely pleasurable. Mmmmmm you have such lovely ways of expressing things sometimes. Miss you too, I was just saying the other day that we need to get down and see ya again. And yes, just as Master said one of my favorite parts about M/s is that I enjoy doing things I don't enjoy. I don't want to just feel the good, warm fuzzy things I want to feel the pain and the suffering because when I can finally let go and feel it instead of being scared or fighting for control I feel most complete. I fight for control a lot sometimes and I don't want to and sometimes the best way to remind me of my place with him, one I sought and actively chose is to make me struggle until I finally let go. Hmmm....lots of thoughts about this one. Maybe I'll start another thread. charlotte
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Stephan's slaveling "I'm not superior, I'm just more important." Master (Stephann) "When you are your freest self, who are you?" Jack Rinella
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