LaTigresse
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ORIGINAL: Aszhrae Have to really wonder about something: If everything you knew and trusted was being withdrawn from you, would you say the same thing? If your life followed the same as mine, would you still be able to pick your self up? I have a very real fear of being alone? Even in a room full of people I still feel very much alone. If there are men in that room, then I want to get as far away from them as possible. Since most employers are men within the same industry as master is employed, I guess I am sort of screwed. As for counseling, yes, I did have a counselor, the only female one there, she has been dismissed and her case load was given to a male that I don't know. There is no damn way. Only reason I associate with master is because he is married to mistress. I don't trust him, never have and he has earned that mistrust. I tolerate men that I know, but there is that tendency not to trust them. Strange men, I want to get away from them as far as I can. If you had indeed read through the thread LaTigresse, you would have picked up on both my points. When I first met master here, I was scared of him, as it eased, I would hyper-ventilate, thankfully I only get the occasional anxiety attack, if the anxiety attack is strong enough it will trigger insomnia and I will go until I pass out from exhaustion. A mistress once asked me about how I would react to the following scenario: if mistress told me to give the gardener a BJ, my reply, I would disobey, that I would rather endure the worst CP imaginable or die, which ever came first. Most employers are men: I would rather endure the worst CP imaginable or die, which ever came first. call it what you like Well then Aszhrae, I guess you are screwed. You refuse to take yourself out of your box. Give or take a few percentage points 50% of the world population is male. Odds are you will either have to learn to deal with them or you will crawl off into some hole somewhere and perish. The choice really is yours. And yes, I have read. I read your words and see nothing but alternating self pity, hostility, and denial. The only way you are going to survive is to pull yourself out of this cycle.
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My twisted, self deprecating, sense of humour, finds alot to laugh about, in your lack of one! Just because you are well educated, articulate, and can use big, fancy words, properly........does not mean you are right!
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