LafayetteLady
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Joined: 5/2/2007 From: Northern New Jersey Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: Valyraen Well, since Kitten's sleeping, I figure I'll pop my head in and see if I can't clear it up, or at least answer some questions. Getting together with Aqua was a real eye-opener for me. Not only was I all of a sudden dating a girl whose sex drive could leave mine in the dust, my eyes started opening to the fact that there was a world of other stuff out there that I'd never really thought about before - that being BDSM. Aqua already had some experience as a submissive, but I was coming into things from an almost totally vanilla background. So, yes, I was a newbie into the world of WIITWD and was doing a good deal of self-exploration as a result. I wouldn't say that Aqua "trained" me to be a dom so much as that she gave me an environment in which I felt safe and comfortable (in as much as one can be while one's paradigms are so radically shifting) coming to grips with the fact that I like pain. She sure as hell didn't train me to be a sadist - if she had, I think she would have stopped before I'd gotten to where I am. Sure, I had to learn the technicals - swinging a flogger, figuring out rope restraints, and the like - but there wasn't ever a time in that period when my motives in developing were based on anything but that I liked who I was becoming. It wasn't that I was uninterested, initially, so much as that I'd never really had any exposure - once I got that exposure, through Aqua, the rest progressed pretty naturally. And again that is why I dislike the term "training." Even on the sub side, wouldn't the environment you just described promote the best result? Much of the "training" that occurs is because of the exposure that is given by the other person. I don't think anyone can be trained to be a sadist. Kind of like being a sub/slave/dom/master or whatever. It's kinda something you already are (even though you didn't realize it until then). I am curious about one thing though. I mentioned that one of the reasons you wanted to become "adept" at the various activities was also because of the depth of your feelings for her. Your post almost disregards that. Do you think you would have explored those areas of your life if not for her?
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