julietsierra
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ORIGINAL: SirDominic Juliet, I think you answered your own question. It doesn't matter what the OP meant by "damage". Damage is whatever she says it is. As you pointed out in your story, it is the subs responsibility to speak out if things are getting too rough for her. It is the Dom's responsibility to honor that. But the key is experience. A beginner sub often does not know enough to know she has an obligation here. Many beginners feel that since they are the submissive one, they have to take whatever the Dom dishes out. And there are a whole lot of beginners and wannabe's in the lifestyle these days. If I am playing with a beginner, I am always particularly cautious for this very reason. In the end it is both people's responsibility, but the primary responsibility should go to the more experienced player. Now see, I don't think that at all. New or not, there is no such thing as "primary responsibility." I am responsible for myself. The dominant is responsible for himself. The thing about this stance is that it accomplishes the very thing you're talking about. If a dominant is responsible for himself, he's going to be cautious. If a submissive is responsible for herself, she's going to be cautious, and when there are Ooopses, both of them stand a better chance of getting through them intact - without the spectre of sirens and flashing lights. And I say this from the point of view that my very first experience within bdsm was with someone who is precisely like what was described by the OP. That night, I knew NOTHING. Not one damn thing. By your estimation, the onus was on him to treat me in a manner that was appropriate to my level of experience (more aptly referred to as inexperience). And you're probably right - but not because he had to take care of me. He should have been more cautious because he should have taken bettr care of HIM. I got hurt. I got hurt badly. Badly enough that I was unable to speak for much of the time following the things we did. I can, to this day, recall the grain in the headboard because focusing on that grain as I kind of stepped out of myself was the only thing I could do. In the days and weeks following that time, I was in bad shape as I came to some definite conclusions. First of all, yep, he was out of line. There were some things he did that even more experienced people would have had issues with. But secondly, and more importantly, it was ME who was out of line. I didn't know anything. I had NO business putting myself in that position. I didn't understand anything that he was saying and I didn't "get" what my responsibilities were. Those were not HIS issues. They were mine. They also were valid enough for me to say that despite how much I got hurt, the responsibility for me even being there rested solidly on me. And I did what was necessary - what I SHOULD have done first. I stepped back, slowed down, and spent some valuable time learning where I'd gone wrong, where he'd gone wrong and just whose responsibility what was. I didn't take on his, but I certainly didn't abbrogate mine. The very fact that I was sorting things out and asking questions told me a LOT. It told me I wanted to learn; it told me that I had a long way to go; and mostly, it told me that I was here to stay because after that situation, if I wasn't, I'd have been running hard in the opposite direction. Now, I'd have liked it if I didn't get hurt in order to learn those things, but just because I did, didn't change the lessons. And yes, given what happened that night, calling the police just may have been an option if I hadn't taken the stance that there was more to learn here than "ooh, he's a big bad meany guy - lock him up!!" So yes, it's her right...it's anyone's "right" to call the police. However just because they have the "right" to do so, doesn't make it right...y'know? juliet
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