Mustardseed
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Joined: 5/27/2006 From: Seattle, WA Status: offline
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Yep. When I first returned to the center and started playing again, I ended up playing casually with a team -- a dominant and his evil henchgirl -- who'd have me howling in no time. Warm up? What's that? It took a few sessions, but they eventually got me crying. The henchgirl coo'ed at me while letting me know that I was doing very well ... because her Daddy had a kink for tears and I was making him very happy. Thus, I got encouragement to cry fairly early on. The first time I cried while playing with my own Daddy, it was a spanking scene at someone's birthday party. Unfortunately, I didn't realize that crying would freak Daddy out. He stopped within minutes of me starting to cry, made sure that I had water and fed me strawberries. While the water was nice and the berries quite tasty, I was a little confused ... had I done something wrong? Why'd he stop? We discussed this later on that night, and I found out that he'd never quite adjusted to the idea that it was okay to make a bottom cry. He heard it as a sort of non-verbal safeword, which is not how I'd meant it at all. Indeed, crying actually ends up being a release valve for me: it keeps me holding still, it keeps me from safewording, it buys me some time to take more before I throw in the towel. He stopped just as I was prepareing to take more. Okay, granted -- I didn't realize that until he stopped, so that evening was a learning experience for both of us ... especially as Daddy has a kink for tears as well. At present, my starting to cry gets read as a "yellow," and I get a pause and water and treats and kisses, then get warned that further crying will be ignored. I nod and sniffle and finish my water and we go on and I scream bloody murder and pretty everything else I can think of that isn't a safeword.
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