urnotworthy
Posts: 11
Joined: 8/31/2005 Status: offline
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The thing that upsets me about this is that we connected so well, he led me to believe we had a meeting of the minds on all issues. In responce to someone on the second page of this thread I have scened and met around 100 subs so far, and yes I am only 22. It seemed that all the ducks were in a row on this, and as I can't outline every conversation we had, there were circumstances that made me over look the "red flags" I can now look back on and see with clarity. Our relationship goals included marrage at some point, and a depth of emotion that his having a wife would not allow. On top of that, I am a jealous person. I want my slave all to myself, knowing he is cheating no matter how unhappy he is with her, makes me wonder if he would be able to be faithful to me. Once a cheater always a cheater? If he can discount his wifes feelings over a sexual urge enough to search elsewhere, how can I trust what I offer would be enough? I am one of those Dommes that gets emotionaly attached to my subs/slaves, I want a slave that will love me, and I can trust and love him. I see his actions as a violation of his marrage (she did not know) and of my trust and emotions. Yet, I also see where he is coming from, as a person he has had situations in his life that make him feel unwanted, and not worthy of being happy. I would have been willing to be his safe place, if he had not lied, even knowing he was married and did'nt have consent from his wife. I agree with someone that stated, if you are unhappy in your marrage you should not stay in it. Obviously the marrage is not serving the purpose it was entered into for. However, he needs to be a man and tell her, and move on. As for my profile, I agree it could be changed and attract better potential slaves. At the time I wrote it I was not seriously looking, so a change might be good. Thanks to all that have replyed, everyones views have made for interesting reading ~s~. I personaly have trust issues, so he has burned his bridges with me. If you lie to me it's over. Hard as it is, since we had spent alot of time together, and made some in depth plans. I will keep going, much like the thread on hang up your whips, I find it's a large part of who I am and that can not be denyed, although I will be taking a break lol.
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