ownedbyPF
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ORIGINAL: OwnedFemaleFlesh Just to answer some general points that people have raised: As regards having an ipod - I'm not really gadget minded. A lot of my music is on vinyl which makes it kind of difficult to listen to on the train! We also live in a small flat, where the TV, computer and stereo are all in the same room, which makes it difficult for us to do two things at once. I think the main issue is that I'm out of the house working a lot, for 12+ hours a day, and at the moment 6-7 days a week. I would be allowed to do what I want when I'm here on my own, it just never happens! And when I am here, and not doing chores, we only have an hour or two together, I don't want to be going off into another room to listen to music, or watching a film on my computer. There is no reason for his removing my privileges. Like I said, I don't watch a lot and my chores come first. He just denies it because he wants to. He doesn't like my shows, he is the Dom, why shouldn't he control it? For me, why is not the issue, as I gave up that power when I became a slave. But the thought of a lifetime of never choosing to watch something on TV again is kind of daunting. Hope this has answered the questions that were floating about. I've been very encouraged by so many of the answers, so many thanks. owned xxx It seems to me that you've really defined it in this portion of your posts. It isn't that you flat out can't watch them, it's that you don't have the space and/or time to do it presently. It sounds like you work all day, come home, do the chores, and then have a couple of hours to relax... since that's all the time there is, HE chooses how that relaxation will be spent, he isn't going to use those couple of hours watching something that doesn't entertain him... he's the owner, and that's his perogative. So it isn't really that you aren't allowed, it's more that, at this particular point in your life, the available time you have doesn't allow for shows you want to watch. It isn't for the rest of your life, it's for this partiular time in your life. One other thing.. you mentioned giving up your job to move, selling your car, accepting being open if he wished and so on... I've found on occasion that I will have a melt down over something that really isn't a huge deal simply because it was the proverbial straw that broke the camels back. In other words, it was just too much stripping away too fast and all of the sudden something that I would normally not consider an issue, is the one that's totally tripping me up. I talk to my Owner, he slows down my mental clutter, helps me take a breath and gets me realigned. Lol, he doesn't ever change what he cast to stone, but somehow, He just makes it all okay for me and that small item that had felt tremendous, no longer matters. Maybe this is one of those moments for you? ~s
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