juliaoceania
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Joined: 4/19/2006 From: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: Caretakr Oh, hi Noah! Sure yes indeedy, I have my own baggage. Which I am trying to sort through. The reason I am whining about this issue, is that I beat myself up over it on occasion. I'm trying to understand where it comes from, for I seemed to attract this sort. I think it had a lot to do with my origional, rather silly "white knight healer", idiocy. Eventually, I got slapped around by enough of these women to get over it. Still I run across the occasional one who sort of makes me shrink back down inside,very bad memories. And it's a knee jerk preservation reaction.....insanity in close proximity can be contageous. So I pretty much look for the opposite now. I think it is that you are also attracted to this sort... As far as my PTSD... I never have been into a punishment kink. I have other issues as we all do. I do get anxiety which I deal with by sitting down and talking myself down. My Dom has witnessed this process and he thinks I handle my anxiety very well, because I do not spew on him because of it. He has had others who have. We all have problems, it is how we solve them that is a measure of our character.. we all have baggage, those who handle their baggage well do not foist it on others and can even take a bag or two for a loved one if needed... just my thoughts.
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