Caretakr
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ORIGINAL: juliaoceania Recently I was at my Daddy's house and I was bleaching his countertops because they had stains on them. I was wearing one of his suit shirts because he likes me to wear them. I accidently leaned up on the counter and got bleach on a Tommy Hilfiger shirt . I was worried all day about this before he came home from work. He saw how badly I felt and how worried I was that I had upset him, and he said "Strumpet, it's only a shirt, I have 50 more in there, I never want you to worry about a 'thing', and it is replaceable." Im sure there will come a time in the future that he will punish me, but if my past interactions with authority are any indications it would be a rare occurance, why? Because I have that little voice that makes me want to do the right thing, it is called a conscience.,.. when I do the wrong thing I feel guilt. I haven't had a Dom around to punish me my whole adult life, but I have needed a sign of forgiveness here and there from those that I have wronged on some level, because I am not perfect. Forgiveness sets us free, on both sides. Your relationships are yours caretakr, Im sure you know how to run your own thing in the best possible way for you and the person in your life. Im sure there is someone out there that will suit you. It sounds like you have had a lot of weeding and kissed a lot of frogs that were not the princess of your dreams... if you are happy with the way things are for you, I certainly couldn't put it down. Good luck. I pretty much recognize the frogs now, croaking out thier tiresome catholic guilt. I prefer lighter, more joyous dynamics now. One where I can trust a person not to be a time bomb, just waiting to implode at any given moment. It's a much more peaceful way to live.
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