akbarbarian
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ORIGINAL: akbarbarian What does this bring to mind? I find that sometimes I get it, and sometimes I don't, and because I want to avoid it I find myself in the position of asking a question that means "Is it ok to give you an order about this?" which royally screws with the sense of M/s for me even if I wanted her to get her way. Which I don't. But the resentment just rains all over my parade even if I "get what I want". Is this passive aggression? If so, what would you say about passive aggressive behaviour in an M/s situation? Honestly, the more you post the more I believe that you couldn't dominate yourself out of a wet paper bag with a hole in it. You really need help with the whole "it's not MY fault" thing you got going. Truly. Again, you personally are not capable of this type of relationship at this point in your life. You NEED a mentor in the very worst way. I'm not trying to be snarky or mean, but geeeeeeez, this is a neverending thing with you two. If you want an M/s relationship, then take the advice of so many people here and get the help you need to create it. This kind of relationship absolutely requires each party, not just one, both, to take long, critical looks at themselves and honestly figure out where changes may need to be made on both parts. Being Master is far more than just being boss. It is a relationship that has to be grown into and developed with time and you simply cannot expect instanenous perfection, but you have to be willing to take responsibility for yourself and your actions. So far, you just want to be boss, micromanage, and bitch and lay blame at her feet when something doesn't go the way your narrow little brain thinks it should. If anyone needs punishment in this relationship, I'd say it's you. Get smart. Be realistic. Be honest. Do not place blame. Accept responsibility. I will give you the benefit of the doubt that you meant well, and reply. I've been at this for 8 years, and am active in the local BDSM community. Classes, clubs, events, and so on. If I wasn't keen on hearing people out, I wouldn't have posted this thread. I get advice from everyone, I just don't have a greying "Master Don Dan the daddy man" picked out whose name to hide behind and say "I do this because super elder dom said to". I go out to talk to people like that every chance I get however, and am actually going out to Edges tonight. Please though, more honey less vinegar. As for not taking blame, I really don't care who is to blame for what. I simply want the problem understood, and resolved. Therefore I have no idea what you are referring to. I'm all out of honey, as I'm all out of patience with this constant scenario with you. This problem is the same as the last ones you've presented on these boards, the only difference is they're dressed in different clothes. You don't need honey, you need something that will get your attention and wake you the hell up. Eight years, no matter how active you are, doesn't mean squat when you refuse to consider the fact that you yourself just might be the problem. You do not provide good communication. She does not respond with good communication. Every problem that has come up, has been her fault. Never your fault. Yet you don't seem to understand that because you continue having these same problems, you just might be the one with the problem. Every time someone points out these things to you, you would rather explain more how it's not your fault rather than spend some time in introspection and deep thought to see how much of a part in your problems that you play. It's very easy to pass off, negate and otherwise ignore what others are saying, to your face, without any sugarcoating. It's harder still to say, "Hmmmmmmmmm... maybe I am wrong ..." If I learn somthing on here (unlikely from you while you're all flaming), and I apply it to my situation with Jodi, that implies I did somthing different or "less wrong" doesn't it? I hope I'm wrong, because at least that I can change. If Jodi's wrong, it's up to her to change it. At least I can change myself, provided I learn anything useful.
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